CHAPTER 5
THE DARK PATH OF VAMPIRISM AND DOMINATION
In our scientific, modern world, vampires are fantasy creatures. They are portrayed as humanlike beings who feed off the blood of their victims. In other cultures, especially in the past, people believed vampires to be real—creatures or entities who steal energy from others.
The main quality of vampires, evident in all cultures, is their parasitic nature. They prey on the good nature of others to fill their emptiness, weakening their victims’ life force, which gradually ebbs away.
Vampires don’t just exist on earth. Cosmic black holes are also like vampires. A black hole is a tight, dense mass that sucks in light and energy from anything that comes too close. Its gravitational pull is so intense that anything captured cannot escape, including light.
Energy Vampires
These days, we use the term “energy vampires” when referring to those people who consistently drain us. Such people take up a lot of the interactive space. Typically, they talk incessantly (usually about themselves), often overreact, and are not always truthful. While having little capacity to emotionally support others, they are attention-seeking and emotionally needy.
Some years ago, I read an article online about micro black holes.7 The article put forward the possibility of small black holes existing all over our solar system. I immediately thought, “I know some of those.”
Most probably, you do too. Dealing with these energy-hungry souls is not easy, but it explains why we have the concept of vampires in so many cultures. By maintaining healthy boundaries, we can prevent these empty people from leeching our energy.
Energy vampires can kill suddenly or slowly. Some years ago, I remember a woman coming to see me about problems with her son. He lived in her house with her two grandchildren and a couple of other people. The son was verbally abusive and sometimes violent. My client feared for the welfare of her grandchildren. As well as this concern, she was already ill, and her health was deteriorating.
This man was easily capable of physically hurting the children during his rages. He was already doing much psychological damage. By not acting, his mother was carrying his karmic burden.
I explained that the solution involved setting boundaries and making him face the consequences of his actions. She could ask him to leave, and if he didn’t, the next time he became abusive, she should call the police. She objected, saying she couldn’t do that to a family member.
I have met many individuals who stay in these types of relationships. The energy vampire usually complains, criticizes, dominates, or demeans. Victims think they are being caring by putting up with this behavior when in fact they are being weakened, sometimes to a point where they no longer have the energy to leave.
In the regressions, I’ve seen many clients whose vital force has been stolen in their current and past lives. After the “vampire” has worn them out, these people are usually discarded and left wondering why these perpetrators have behaved in such selfish and callous ways.
Some souls choose the extreme path of separation. These souls are not only disconnected from Source and others, they have disconnected from themselves. They are extreme representations of vampirish behavior because they are empty; their survival depends on their ability to live off the energy they absorb from dominating others. But how does that work?
In this chapter, we explore two cases where the vampiric behavior is extreme. The first demonstrates vampiric transfer of energy and the way it becomes an addictive cycle, while the second explores the path out of domination.
Vampiric Behavior and Its Consequences
In the first case, Raquel regressed into a past life as a young man. This man had been conscripted to fight in a war, which deeply damaged him emotionally. This life proved to be the grimmest of all the past lives we accessed during Raquel’s regressions, as her soul became deeply lost and cut off from Source. She described it as “trudging into muddy, swampy places where you develop strong legs.” The young man needed strong legs as he struggled through life alone without any help from a higher power.
We access the past life just after a brutal battle has taken place. The soldier is feeling strong emotions.
I feel a ball of rage inside and a lot of shame about what we did in the battle. I see a very big wall and camps outside. We were ordered to kill everyone indiscriminately: men, women, and children. I am young. I hadn’t killed anyone before and, while I did what I was told, I cannot see a good reason for doing it. I see that they are people, just like we are. I look at their faces full of fear and confusion, so helpless, and yet we kill them.
I am getting glimpses of fighting soldiers, and that’s what I expected, not killing helpless women and children. Afterward, our leaders explain that these people are not like us and they have to die for the greater good. We are told to channel our doubts into rage while fighting the soldiers, as they are the ones who left their own people unprotected.
I turn my initial shame and confusion into fighting, and I can’t turn it off. I don’t know how to stop. The wall inside of me is so big and so strong.
To cope, the soldier buries his shame, cutting off any emotional vulnerability and feelings of empathy. Raquel describes him as feeling numb. He has no compassion for those he slaughters. When the war is over, he becomes a mercenary and leader of a loyal band of former soldiers.
I see a battlefield. I get flashes of cutting people with a sword, especially across the neck and stomach, seeing blood, mud and dirt, hearing muffled sounds getting louder, now metal on metal, chinks and scrapes, men—all of this noise zooming in and out because I am concentrating on what I am doing. I am killing people.
We outmatch the people we are fighting, so it’s a slaughter. I think we are English, wearing chainmail, former faithful soldiers and now battle-hardened mercenaries. The opposition is not like us. They are locals wearing blue tunics and some odd bits of chainmail.
We are taking over this village. I can hear a bell ringing. It feels like we are doing it for a noble, but it is my thing. I am the leader of this group. We are killing and sexually assaulting and generally creating chaos. We kill all able-bodied men and many others, including women and children. We are brutal, putting no value on these people’s lives whatsoever.
In the back of my mind there is something about it not being right, but I ignore it. I am cold, hardened by battle, and not wanting to feel anything.
There is something satisfying about pushing my sword into warm, soft flesh and ending a life. I find a certain peace that comes with the sword going in and the blood coming out. I cannot trust the world around me, but the kill is real. My body is hard with lots of scars. I have survived because I turn the hits I should’ve taken onto someone else. There is a righteousness in killing, which is proof of my power every time I kill. I am stronger and, if I wasn’t, I would be killed.
In killing women, I kill my own vulnerability and sensitivity. I am railing against any frailty or feeling, purposely shutting myself down. When I kill, I cut off all the softness and keep getting harder, stronger, and leaner. I am used to wearing armor, and I am trying to create an internal armor.
Killing, when one is this emotionally empty and isolated, creates a blood lust in the murderer. The mercenary comes out of time and space, experiencing a cathartic discharge when he sees the bloodletting. At the same time, he receives an energy charge from defeating his opponent. Now he becomes a vampire. The victim’s life force is released, and the murderer absorbs this energy like a hit of adrenaline. He needs this energy because he has cut himself off from Source. Like any artificial high, it doesn’t last. He is caught in a cycle of seeking more energy hits.
Raquel is disturbed by the intensity of her feelings as the mercenary. This reminds her that when she was young, she was mean and a bit of a bully. She pauses to reflect on her feelings.
I have always been violent in my mind. I hate the idea that I would hurt someone badly because I am still carrying that angry energy from the mercenary. I don’t like being a “hot” person; I want to be cool, calm, and peaceful, like a placid lake rather than a volcano.
After acknowledging Raquel’s discomfort with what she is receiving, I suggest we find out what happens to the mercenary. She reconnects with him in the past life.
We take the village. Having fealty to the noble, I am rewarded with the keep, but I can feel a resentment growing toward him.
He didn’t come and fight these battles. He didn’t even go to war. He expects loyalty but he hasn’t earned it, not in the way I have with my men. I have no fear of my men turning on me. They respect me as their leader. I am plotting to kill him in order to be the overlord. I am stronger than him so, in my view, overtaking him is fair.
After fighting my way into his castle, I slit his throat. I see the confusion on his face. He didn’t realize what he unleashed in me. I am not going to sit quietly because there is never enough power for someone like me. Now I have to kill anyone of significance, including his family and hangers-on.
I can see a woman being kept alive, his sister or his wife, and I am going to make her mine. I am not going to love her. She is nothing more than my property. But I feel this thing inside, a vulnerability that is trying to push through. I have to drown it out, and I do that with violence. I sexually assault her to keep my vulnerability away. I hit her, throwing her around and attempting to suffocate her.
When there is no war, I have to do worse things. In peacetime, there is a silence, and the inner voices and vulnerability surface. I have to act to keep them away.
Reliving this brutal violence distresses Raquel. I encourage her to breathe deeply. As soon as she calms down, she receives more information.
I also have this pattern in my current life. When the vulnerabilities and softness come in, I put on my headphones to drown out the voices. I drink to numb my feelings. I even have vertigo to distract me. Being ill can be an escape too. I had one friend who would get sick; she was deaf to everything.
To face who you are, you have to hear these voices. “Are you doing the right thing? Are you being honest with yourself and others? Are your actions in alignment with your true self?” These are the voices that call your attention to your behavior, voices calling you to face a world that is not easy to see and hear. You run from what you see as difficult or negative.
You need to know that your lessons don’t go away. They just get more insistent. People have mental breakdowns, illnesses, accidents, marriage break ups, job losses, and so forth, all to wake them up.
After Raquel has shared this wisdom, I suggest we go back to the story.
The woman I treat so cruelly slits her wrists, killing herself. I go into a rage, smashing things. I am furious that she has taken away my control. The voices are louder now, and I have lost the thing that drowned them out.
I am locking people out of the room, and I think of killing myself. Instead, I go back to war and fight, dying on the battlefield. I am glad to go, but I am not content with the way I lived my life. It was a hollow life, the worst kind of life, a life full of disregard for everyone with no connection to anyone.
I am looking around at the destruction, feeling confused. My spirit has been ignored all my life, and now suddenly it is let out. I am not physical anymore, and my physical self was everything. It is like meeting yourself for the first time, like a newborn lamb stumbling around.
In fact, this mercenary’s spirit has been stuck in a confused state for hundreds of years. Raquel now has the opportunity to release this stuck energy.
I am like a child spirit. I want someone to come for me. They both come now, my guide and my eternal mother. They left me there for a time to take in what has happened. They are very understanding. We float away into the white light. Still confused, I ask them what happened.
It seems I couldn’t get through to my real self. It was a challenging body and mind to be in. I was so strong-willed. Killing the pagans and being manipulated by the leaders to create rage shut me down and put me on that path of being hard and murderous. If I hadn’t hardened, I wouldn’t have survived.
That hardness, to some degree, was there in my subsequent lives, but those bodies didn’t promote it like [the body of] the vicious fighter.
The shutting-down is most prominent in my current life. Sometimes I feel violent, and I want to smash things. When I tap into that rage, there is nothing else. Meditation and silence can be hard for me because the rage surfaces. The rage is a feeling but without a target. I am very connected to my inner warrior self. I experienced shame in my childhood being in a family that is against emotions and vulnerability. All that has encouraged me to shut down again.
Raquel realizes her current life was planned to deliberately surface memories of this past life. Her body was carefully chosen, as were the challenges she has faced.
What is important right now is my awareness of this shutting down, what caused it, and how it is being resolved. Only recently we’ve had the tools to access our past lives easily and receive help. One wouldn’t want to re-live that past life alone.
The guides are telling me there was a lot of useful experience in that past life. I was learning to understand what healthy male energy is by experiencing its opposite. The mercenary’s actions did not reflect authentic masculinity.
The mercenary was stuck in violence because he’d cut himself off from Source. He was empty, unable to receive any loving attention. He perversely lived on the energy he reaped by killing others. But he died disillusioned. What he did to the nobleman’s wife had an impact on him. In the beginning, he was disconnected from the pain he was causing her. But when she killed herself, he was affected. He was angry because he felt out of control. She took his power away, and he started realizing what he had done. Raquel reflects on the importance of listening to guidance.
We don’t listen because we are scared. We get a message to do something that seems outrageous, like go to Alaska and be an artist. It is our fear and our focus on survival that object. We are afraid to trust our guidance. But not doing it means we have a life half-lived.
Being shut down in that life of brutality was useful because I didn’t hear my inner voice. The main learning for my current life is to listen to my inner guidance.
Lifetimes where we are cut off from our guidance and refuse to listen are still useful. We are stubborn, stumbling along alone, making a mess of our lives. Eventually, after sufficient isolation and suffering, we learn to value wise guidance and listen to it. Then we have the choice to act on it or not, which is an exercise of our free choice.
I ask Raquel to check with her guides about the rage she has harbored. Will it keep coming up?
The body can surface feelings just from habit. Knowing what is happening will help. I need to be accepting when any angry feelings surface, remembering the pattern, breathing through the emotion, and allowing it to pass. As I retrain myself, my anger will dissipate.
As well as carrying anger in her current life, Raquel regrets causing pain to others. She is aware of the lessons now, and it is up to her to integrate this new understanding by consciously choosing her reactions.
During a regression six months later, Raquel receives more information about the value of the mercenary’s life.
That life was part of me, and no life is wasted. I need to accept everything that got me to where I am right now and then look back with gratitude. The energies are all balanced by the time we ascend. There is no need for shame. It was one of the possible choices. We all learnt from that life.
Since regressing to the mercenary’s life, Raquel has also noticed significant changes in herself.
I am more compassionate since I have remembered the mercenary’s life. A lot of my anger is gone—it was like it was locked in a box with a dark heat and a slow, deep burn.
My guides are sending love and light to me now, reminding me that they love me and are always with me and that I am on the right path. When I die this current life, I will be going home, back to them. As you get closer to the end of the soul journey, it naturally gets easier.
Mythological vampires came out at night to suck the life force of others. The mercenary’s life shows how this myth might have been formed. Cut off from Source and inner guidance, very little, if any, light or wisdom penetrated his psychological armor, creating an inner vacuum that propelled his vampiric actions, ushering in his dark night of the soul.
The addictive behavior of these souls—ranging from the emotional manipulation of others all the way through to murder—briefly satisfies their emptiness, but no matter how much attention they receive, it is never enough. They are stuck in a cycle of self-loathing because of their awful behavior and their fear of vulnerable feelings.
People who behave so atrociously are numb inside and numb to the feelings of others. Perhaps you have noticed how painful it is to thaw exposed fingers that feel frozen on a really cold day. It hurts! When Raquel reflected on how lost and cruel she had been in a past life, she discovered that thawing a frozen heart or soul is many times more painful. Although this case gives us the opportunity to understand gruesome behavior, it does not excuse it. Perpetrators appropriately suffer the consequences of their actions.
The Value of Devastating Lives
The experience of abusing our power can be useful, whether that is emotional abuse or physical. On this planet, we learn through experience. What we perpetrate on others we will later experience ourselves so we can understand both sides of violence. This gives us a deeper understanding of ourselves and others. As we grow in awareness, we learn to value life as precious and develop compassion for all beings. We learn discernment, knowing what particular actions will lead us down the wrong path. Eventually, we are able to consciously choose what we want to experience and what we do not.
In our next case, we see how a soul is developing this discernment.
Xana is a naturopath who comes to see me wanting to develop her spiritual path. She is curious about finding the balance between accepting and loving others while still protecting herself.
In the regression, she learns she has endured a series of lives in which she was submissive and victimized. It began with a life as a deformed girl who, abandoned by her family, starved to death, imprinting her soul with deep feelings of worthlessness. Xana’s soul goes on to experience many more sad lives.
To break this cycle, Xana’s soul incarnates as a man who acts out his feelings of insignificance by secretly and sadistically dominating others. He feels contempt for his victims who he sees as weak, but deep down he feels contempt for himself. By dominating others, he externalizes what he wants to kill off in himself: his own weakness and insignificance. In this past life, the man is found guilty of murder and spends many years in prison.
When Xana wonders why her soul went down this path of worthlessness, culminating in a life of dominating and murdering helpless people, she suddenly finds herself in an expansive room that is completely white. She holds a scepter with a crystal ball in her right hand and a fan of dark purple flowers in her left.
I am in a calm place. It doesn’t seem like earth. The scepter represents the male energies of strength and power while the fan creates a flow of a gentle breeze, representing the female energy of softness. Both are needed. Now I feel a presence in the room.
That merciless life was about learning to appreciate what I had. I needed to feel in control, but there is no need to try and control. You can just be.
I am struggling to accept my actions in that life. I need to forgive myself. In order to love myself, I need to love that man. We all have a bit of everyone in all of us, good and bad, dark and light.
I am being told [the life of domination] was a useful life. I was learning about compassion and how precious life is. I had a lot of remorse in jail and a lot of realizations. There are two sides to the coin, and we need to see both. It is like a measuring stick or set of scales so you can decide what you want.
When I wonder why she had the life as the deformed girl who was abandoned and felt worthless, Xana is taken to the body selection area in her life between lives. Here, she chose a body for that life. From several potential bodies, she selected a frail little female body.
I could have had a slightly easier life, but I wanted to challenge myself. I didn’t realize how hard it would be. I am a stubborn soul. I wanted to do it this way. The life was important, planned to show me how to love unconditionally. In that life, I experienced the opposite. I experienced a lack of love. That is useful.
While Xana is in the body selection area, I wonder what happened after her lives of victimization and domination and ask about the plan for the subsequent life.
I am still stuck with worthlessness. It took a long time to process those lives. In the afterlife, I list all the things I did, using categories of positive and negative. I am now with a young male, a friendly guide, planning my next life. Together, we are mapping out some ideas. I am really afraid of making the same mistakes, so I am hesitant about coming back. He says I need to jump in and move on.
Planning Nurturing Lives
The fact that Xana’s soul is involved in planning the subsequent life means the soul returned to the higher frequencies of the afterlife. The many remorseful years in prison increased the vibrational frequency of Xana’s soul.
The life we decide on is significantly different to the other lives. With help, we carefully choose a caring environment and a loving family in Japan.
I am to be a little boy, an only child to older parents. I’ll marry and have one or maybe two children. I will be in a position of power, a lawyer in the government where I’ll be secure. I will die of a heart attack at age fifty in 1952.
We review that life to see if Xana’s fears were realized.
It went pretty well. I lived a simple life with a loving wife and good, respectful children. I felt love for them all. It was a loving environment. Work was hard but good. I felt valued there and worthwhile. I see the guide is holding two thumbs up.
I ask if we can look at the plan for Xana’s current life.
It is a continuation of developing a sense of worthiness. It’s important to develop feminine energy in my current life. I was loving in that previous life, but I didn’t always show emotion. I still don’t outwardly show affection.
We are choosing a female body, Eurasian. I’ll be well-off financially, but I could get caught up in social issues, mainly the expectations of others. That is a challenge.
The plan is having a more balanced life, not focusing on one thing like success, work, or obsessing about a partner. I choose a family that has those balanced values, and I will find it easy to express love and not get caught in proving myself. This life is more about just “being.”
The family’s values are most important. The type of body is irrelevant. So, the choice is made on the family that fits that criterion of appropriate values.
The family Xana chooses turns out to be perfect for the continuation of her soul development. Xana’s mother in her current life is Margarita, a sweet, soft-spoken woman, who comes for a regression. It is soon apparent why she was chosen to be Xana’s mother. During the regression, Margarita receives information about her soul journey, explaining that she is a loving, open soul, emanating peace and love. She is a perfect mother for Xana in her current life.
Xana is still recovering from her sense of worthlessness and needs love and positive attention. In her regression, she is given more information about her current life plan.
To fulfill the plan, I need to be more open. I wonder how I can be accepting and loving and still protect myself. I still have a fear of being unprotected.
When I ask about this fear, Xana immediately gets an image of the deformed girl.
One side of my face is deformed slightly in the beginning, but it gets worse over time.
Now I am looking at her and seeing the real beauty in her soul, the courage of taking this on to teach me so much, especially compassion.
There is a golden light coming down now, which is nurturing, loving, and protecting. I lock eyes with her, and then I hug her. [Long pause.] This dear girl is okay.
This healing action of feeling love and compassion for the brave young girl released Xana from her fear of being unprotected.
The dominating life was a significant turning point for Xana’s soul, showing how exercising her free will enhanced her soul’s recovery. When this man was in prison, he didn’t waste much time brooding and feeling sorry for himself. He spent the time reflecting, trying to understand why he took such a devastating path. Xana’s soul then had an opportunity to continue learning in the afterlife—and took it. This is why her soul progressed so quickly over a few lifetimes—from brutal carnage to fostering love.
Xana came from another planet a long time ago and has had nearly two thousand earth lives. As a soul, she is a healer. The journey through her many incarnations has been about developing the skills and understanding needed to heal others.
Xana is still in the process of emerging from her challenging past lives. She has learned much and has more to learn, especially about being open and affectionate. As she develops, others will reap the benefits of her journey into the nether regions of the human experience.
Conclusion
During the regressions I conduct, the guides consistently tell us that nothing is lost and much is gained by choosing the path of separation and isolation. They emphasize that each soul learns much by this choice. Nothing, according to the guides, is a mistake.
Of course, this view is challenging to us. We feel the anguish of loss and separation in both our bodies and our hearts. When our fellow humans treat us with indifference or cruelty, our disappointment runs deep. We are horrified at those who find satisfaction in hurting others, who revel in their misfortune, or who feed off their energy.
It is important to remember that all our actions have consequences. Raquel’s soul took centuries to find its way back after taking a dark path. The same holds true for Casilda and Jacobo. While all three had lives as perpetrators, they also suffered many lives as victims.
The law of karma means our motivations matter just as much as our actions. Although facing the truth of our actions is sometimes deeply painful, it is essential if we wish to heal. We need to acknowledge the hurt we have caused others and feel compassion for those we have wronged—intentionally or not—and for ourselves, for we knew no better at the time.
Many of us carry deep feelings of worthlessness. Some of us blame our childhoods, our parents, or our partners for our struggles in life. For souls like Raquel, Xana, Casilda, and Jacobo, facing what they have done in their past lives and then forgiving themselves takes a lot of courage. Having lost ourselves in darkness, having inflicted our pain, hate, and anger on others, self-awareness is the key to restoring our connection.
In the next chapter, we further explore the transition of lost souls: how they begin to emerge into awareness after lives of transgression and violence.
